So this week I thought I’d have a little chat about adjusting to Sixth Form, including how I’m coping OCD wise.
I am studying biology, chemistry and French at A level and I am loving all of them! Weirdly, I’m finding biology the hardest as I really struggle to concentrate in the lessons and we are currently doing cells which I found incredibly boring at GCSE but I am very much hoping it will get more interesting. Chemistry is very very interesting, I’m actually loving it even though I’m finding the maths side of it very difficult, however I’m going to persevere and get some practice in because I love chemistry and I’m determined to do well in it! French is the one that I don’t know where to start with, I’ll go into more detail in a bit but basically, OCD and French are not getting on too well….
Work wise, I am getting on pretty well, I’m managing to use my free periods somewhat productively and it’s great as I have a friend who does the same lessons as me and therefore has the same timetable so I know I’ve always got someone to do work with. I’m struggling a bit to get my work done at home as I’m really procrastinating lately, so I think I might do a post sometime soon about procrastination (which I will probably write as a form of procrastination) as I might give me some inspiration to get some work done!
So OCD is struggling with the change in my daily structure. In chemistry I am really struggling with the looming practical experiment that my teacher has described. On Thursday we have to do a titration which worries me because I’m too scared to touch any of the chemicals because of contamination and the idea of putting on a lab coat is also terrifying. I had to try on a lab coat as my teacher (who knows about my OCD) said I could have my own and even though I wanted to cry I managed to do it and I’m so proud of myself!
So, French is a huge struggle at the moment. The main reason is because OCD has decided that if I make any mistakes in my work then I will fail the whole A level. I then proceeded to have a full on anxiety attack in between my double lesson (I had one lesson with one teacher followed by a lesson with my other French teacher) due to the fact that I started writing ‘beaucoup’ and accidentally spelt it ‘ba’. Yep, I wrote an ‘a’ instead of an ‘e’ and then froze for a while completely unable to write anything else for the rest of the lesson. It was pretty embarrassing to be quite honest so in the end I decided to tell one of my teachers so I feel a lot better now that they know.
So that was just a little update for this week, I think next week I might try to do a more interesting post as I have a pretty boring life if I’m honest. I hope you have all enjoyed reading this post, see you soon!